For your tears...

You shed your tears...

'I start to question why I am in London. Each year numerous people leave UK to their own home.

I tear because we still feel lonely here in London. Yes, there’s so much I can do in London, park, evening classes, theatre, museums.. etc… but we want friendship

I tear because I am tired of the process of getting-to-know-you and the next thing I know, you are leaving me and I have to start the process again.

I tear because I am disappointed that no one include me and albert into their agenda. Our friends here in London are busy going through their own life routine.'
----------By Irony Iriny

Actually, I feel the same. I believe that many people would agree with you.

I tried to seek for reasons.

Reason No.1: Being overseas (no matter what we do), we normally have few social connections, at least start with small circles around us. If our circles are floating people like us, we'll find our circles shrunk and expanded again and again. Those who were left after each filtering process would be life-long friends in our future community.

Reason No. 2: As young person, few of us have investments in any visible thing.
Property is material but it does give us some sense of 'ownership'. And we can't just say, let's pack our house and go.

Therefore, we won't have any visible string to tie us anywhere. Further more, house brings neighbourhood and community which can never be sold or let.

I actually found it hard to leave my street now because I got to know my neighbours well. They are so friendly. And they taught me gardening.

Reason No.3: We do have different visions as a new generation. We came because we wanted a 'better' life, didn't we. I did. We therefore have the mind of searching for a 'better, more suitable, more friendly' place, or a place God calling us to move on. Sometimes, I question myself, 'is it calling? or temptation?'

Reason No.4: We are moving, walking, or running evangelical Christians. Most of the time, we focus on 'spread' the gospel and forget the community in our arms. Our church sends young people for their gap year in different continets. They started moving, floating as teenagers.

One of my colleagues just transfered to a hospital in north England where she says most of the problem are alcohol related and the nurses there give pabrinex like dish candies.

Reason No. 5: Some of us tend to escape failures. And all young people failed often. (I am an expert on this.) So I thought moving to a new place and start all over again. I promise I won't make the same mistake. Of course, as a human, we don't stop making mistakes but different ones.

Reason No. 6: I am in fear too. I am afraid that even if I don't leave, people will leave me.

This is silly, I know. But I can't help it.

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